I am thinking about you today, as I do everyday, it's just some days hurt more than most. Today is one of them. Last night the Compassionate Friends group had a candlelight vigil all over the united states, and on the internet as well. Your Mom, sister, myself and Grandma D. all posted on the website for you and lit a candle in your honor and your memory. Hope you got the messages we sent. I can't believe it's been 10 months today since we lost you. Your mom is right when she says in some ways it seems like yesterday and in some ways it seems like it's been forever since we got to hug you, talk to you, kiss your cheek, hear your wonderful laugh or see your dazzling smile. I know you are with us in every way you can be, but it's just not the way we want you to be. Your Mom is right about Christmas too. It's really hard to find any kind of joy in it this year, knowing you are not here to share it with us, with all of your smiles and special thought out gifts, enjoying spending time with our family, and chowing down on all of the holiday food you so loved!! Your absence leaves such a huge hole in our family. I never knew I could miss someone so intensly, as I miss you. We watch for your signs, and relish in the ones you get through to us. Some of those signs you leave for us make us laugh!! Like eat more ice cream. There are only a few of us that know what that mean, but the meaning is going in the right direction!!! I hurt for me, but honey, I hurt even more for your Mom, Dad, and Sister. It's so hard to not be able to" fix" their hurt and pain. I try to be there for them, but the only person who could truly "fix" any of it, would be if you could be here with us. Our time with you has been far too short for this lifetime.

Well buddy, just know that I will miss you everyday, from now until the day we meet again in Heaven, I know you will be there to greet each one of us with your beautiful smile and big hug, as our times come. I love you nothing X's infinity and I miss you just as much. You still are and will always be my favorite redhead in the whole wide world. XOXOXOXOXOXO Aunt Lisa/Mom