One year, oh Eric we miss you so much! It's so hard to think that we haven't seen your beautiful smile, heard your wonderful laugh or felt your hugs for a year, and that we'll never see you or hug you againj in this life. We've now been through all the first's without you and they were all so hard. Oh how I wish I could hear you say, "love you grandma" again. On New Years Eve, at the stroke of midnight, my first thought was of you and that you would never see a New Year. At Christmas our thought were on you and I looked at the packages for the family and thought about the fact that there were no packages with your name on them. I think of you every single day, and yes, I shed tears every day, today as soon as I opened my eyes you were on my mind (and in my heart). As your grandpa said the other day, "we'll never for get him, he's in our hearts forever". It's been so hard to watch the pain your parents and Marie have been in this year, wishing I could make them feel better, but knowing that's not possible. Nothing we can say or do will make the pain go away. I know you would feel so bad to know that our family is in such agony. Nothing ever prepares a parent for losing a child, nor a grandparent losing a grandchild. Everytime our doorbell rings I so hope (even though I know better) that I'll open the door and you'll be standing there, with that big grin, laughing and saying, "but grandma it's tradition"!

love you Eric.