Eric I really miss you I!!! You were the best big brother that I could ever ask for. I so wish I could hear your voice agian giving me brotherly advice when I need it. You always knew just what to say. You really did have dads sense of humor. School is so much harder with out you here to help me. I would do any thing to have you back here the way that I want you to be. You come to vist me in dreams some times I just wish it was more often. We had such a special friendship. You were my best friend. You were one of the only people that I knew I could tell any thing too. When I was upset you always knew just what to say to make me feel better. You were always the very protective me brother too. When ever I told you that I was having a problem with some one you would always tell me "let me hear them say any thing mean to you I will put them in your place. I have a hard time still going up to the school and going into the deans office where you worked. I see some one sitting in your spot on the computer you use to work on. I get tearful when I go into there. I still cry because I miss you. I think that I will always have tears some times when I think of you. I miss you soooo.... much. You are always in my heart, and in my thoughts. As you know yesterday was dads birthday as today is yours. Grandma thinks that we don't celebrate dads birthday now. But we do. Yesterday dad requested sweet and sour meat balls for dinner (what I usually asked for but didn't this year) and we had his favorite desert straberry short cake. Mom spent all day in the kitchen cooking for dad. Then we watched a movie as a family. Then today we went to the mall and dad got some things to go fishing with for his boat. Then on Sunday more than likely grandma is comming over. But she thinks we aren't celebrating dads birthday because we aren't having cake. But as you know dad doesn't like cake any how. we had desert on his birthday.