hey Eric, I have not been on your website since my last post a few months ago. Getting on here always makes me cry.I am having one of my sleepless nights again. I have been feeling stressed out lately and you are the one that always helped me get through times like this. But you are not here. I wonder why you had to go, it just doesn't seem fair to me. You held so much promise in life for you to not be here now doesn't seem right to me. My life is so different now that you are gone. If you were still here and could see the way I am now you would be shocked. Life is totally different for me. I often wonder what my life would be like and yours if you were still here. What you would be doing, what new memories we would have created together. But I will never get to know that now it will always be something I wonder though. There are so many things I wish I could tell you and so many things I wish I could do with you. We had so many plans that were totally destroyed by your death. But you will always live on in my heart. I told you about a month before my wedding that I was going to have you in my wedding but at the same time I knew that wasn't true but at the time I didn't understand why that was. Although now it makes perfect sense. I love you and miss you forever and ever. I hope that you will be in my dreams soon. I knew the other day you were in my car with me. I can always feel your presence when you are there. I know that you are looking down on me from heaven and I wish you were still here. But things are the way they are now for a reason only in time and in my death will I totally understand. You are the best big brother I could have ever asked for. I need to try to get some sleep now. I love you miss you forever.

Your favorite little sis,

Marie