Hey Buddy just sitting here thinking about you, Today is my Birthday, Just wishing so much you were here to give me my big birthday hug! and smile, i know your in my heart but I miss you so much it's a physical ache, I see how much Marie misses her big brother and it makes my heart ache even more,Because I feel so helpless and wish there was anything I could do to comfort her. So I guess I carry pain for both of us, I think you miss us as much as we miss you, i know one day I will be with you again, But it sure is hard being apart from you. I love you nothing , I often picture you and your big smile and things we used to laugh about, and wish so much their could be more, it's so hard knowing that there will never be enough, and wishing so much that there could be more memories, We all feel so cheated I wish you could have had so much more in your life, There will never be a day I am not thinking about what should have been,,,,, I send you all my love son I miss you so very much......