Merry Christmas in Heaven my special angel, I love you and miss you so much, I treasure the time and memories i have with you, but my heart aches for all of the should haves, all of the dreams I had for you, I wear the mask as it's the only way i can cope, but behind every smile or moment of joy, There is always a tear not far behind, There is not a day or even a moment that I am not feeling your not being here, sometimes I do feel you around me, and how i wish I could wrap my arms around you for one of those big hugs, The sound of your laughter our silly conversations, There is nothing I don't miss about you. I know you would be so proud of Marie, and I tell her that, every new show that comes on that we know you would have liked, or movie that comes out me and Marie always say we know you would have liked it, new technology that I know you would have liked. You are always in our thoughts, Forever in our hearts, I had such a hard time Christmas shopping I could not shake the feeling that I was missing someone on my list, I knew why I felt that way, but it did not help, so I bought a small ornament with your name on it, I am sure you know how much you are Loved and missed , Love you nothing Eric