Hey Eric,

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I miss you like crazy. I wish I could see you again. You missed my wedding day just over three months ago. I wished that you could have been there. That is the only thing that could have made that day even more perfect. A big part of me still feels like its missing and has ever since the day you passed away. It has gotten easier to be able to talk about you with out having a melt down. But losing you has been extremely hard on me. I know you would be proud of me how far I have come in my life. I wish you could be hear to see me and how successful I have become. You always told me how smart I was but I didn't always believe you with how hard I always struggled in school. But with the things I have now accomplished I know you are smiling down on me. I can just hear you say see I knew you could do it. I am so proud to be able to call you my brother. I just wish so badly you could be hear with me. It really bothers me that you are not here. When mom and dad passes away someday I will be alone with out you. I do not look forward to that day. I love you with all my heart Eric. You will always have a very special place in my heart. There is not one day that will ever pass that you won't be in my heart and on my mind. I love you forever and ever no matter how far away you are from me. You will always be my best friend even if you are not here with me. Not even death can change how much I love you and what you mean to me. You are the best big brother I could ever ask for. I love you Eric!!! I know that you are smiling down on me and looking out for me. You are my angel.